Whenever I celebrate my birthday I am reminded of the reality of death. But now that I am getting older, instead of focusing on the fact that death is near, I am now fixing my gaze on my purpose.
Have I found my purpose? Am I intentional with my life’s choices, decisions, and the quality of life that I am living? If I’ll be dead soon, will I face God with fear or regret that I’ve not lived at all?
Entering the historic age of 33 (lol), I bring with me the realization that life is unpredictable so I have to live it to the best of my capabilities. I have to be in control of where my life is going but also open to where God wants me to grow. It means, taking responsibility for my life but knowing in my heart that God knows everything.
For years, I’ve promised to be intentional with my life’s choices. This decision shaped my being in a new way. Because through it, I’ve learned to spend my time on things that matter. Also, I’ve learned to let go of people, principles, and ideas that only trigger my human tendencies. I’ve learned to focus on my goals and timeline instead of looking after what others have achieved.
Becoming intentional taught me to spend more on experiences rather than on things, to treasure every moment rather than focus on what must be done in the world’s eyes, and to live this life awake and fully alive. Above all, I’ve learned to look ahead to my destination, my endpoint, thus, living in the present is only a reminder of a life with Him.
Turning 33 this year is only a manifestation that God is good and generous with me it is just right that I give Him the honor that He truly deserves by being fully alive while I am here. This year, I pray that I’ll give more avenues for the Lord to work in my life by being open and sensitive to His leadings. I also pray I’ll have the courage to constantly open my arms to His generosity and will in whatever way He would want it to be.
For the past 33 years, God was ever present in my journey and I am confident that I have nothing to fear as I continue my pilgrimage. Though there will be difficulties ahead, I am certain that I have Him as my anchor and guide. While writing this, I am reminded of this line, an oath we made as Fulltime Pastoral Workers, it says,
At all times, and in all circumstances, God is first!
This sums up my life’s purpose, my goal while I am still here. To always choose God. To honor Him, to give Him the glory. And, to live my life only for Him, always for Him.
AMDG +
Journeying beyond,
Deanne
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