A question none of us dared to ask ourselves.
In few weeks time I’ll be embracing a new season of my life. It is scary. It freaks me out every time I think about all the uncertain details of the road ahead. But more than the uncertainties I realized that being forgotten actually holds a deeper horror.
Human as we are, we fear goodbyes because we are afraid that the people that we used to be with will experience new things without us. That the places that we’ve been to will eventually change, the memories that we’ve made will soon be put into a box of the past and the experiences we used to rekindle with people will eventually be forgotten. We fear these things. I too, fear these things.
Growing up I always celebrated my birthday in the cemetery. I was born on a special day, a time for a great feast in heaven and on earth. I grew up being reminded that my time is short. That I have a purpose to fulfill here on earth. I always believed that time will come I’ll be like anybody else in the cemetery, forgotten but hopefully I’ll lived well like the others. Year after year I celebrated my birthday with a thought that I am getting closer to death. And so, I lived with the idea that I’ll soon be forgotten and that’s okay. But in this time of transition in my life, it actually scares a part of me.
I realized that the enemy has his own way of luring us into believing that we should be remembered. That we’ve wasted our time and energy in something not worth it and soon be forgotten. But thank God because even if I am tempted to believe in the lies of the other side, God made His way to remind me of who I am.
Just like from the very start of doing God’s mission I do not mind if I will never be remembered as long as they’ll remember Him the one I am representing. My place in the mission was so clear from Day 01. I am just a messenger, not the message. My goal is for His message to be remembered and for His love to be appreciated.
Today, in the middle of all transitions that I am going through I am at peace. Yes, by God’s grace I am ready.
God bless your journey!
Journeying beyond,
Deanne
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